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The first thing woman did wrong was eat.
Back in the beginning of time, before there was mating or power suits or iPhones, there were Adam and Eve and everything was lovely until Eve took a bite of that fucking apple. Then everything went to shit.
Maybe it was the fact I had a friend who was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa, the king of all feminine neuroses, that made me really think about my relationship with food. Sarah had a lot of problems, not all of them psychological, that made her decidedly more broken than the rest of us, things doctors couldn't diagnose. She was a tiny person, in stature and in weight, and she spoke about her anorexia with a frank tone, an obvious defiance against her condition.
After passing over my most turbulent struggle with my condition, I did this as well. I couldn't be a REAL anorexic bulimic if I talked about it openly, then it was just a thing of the past. The not so distant past. If I said "recovered anorexic bulimic", I had overcome it and it couldn't touch me. It's creeping, spindly tentacles couldn't grab my ankles during lunch with my father and my half brother or push the food around my plate on dinner dates. This was about as effective as telling my mother my room was clean and then shoving all my things under the bed.
If I can't see it, it's not there, right?
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you have cursed us, mother eve
we regret the things we eat
damned to the eternal fate
despising every bite we ate
poring over each detail
skeletal and deathly pale
compared to every girl we meet,
you have cursed us, mother eve
if the apple'd stayed untouched
would we hate ourselves as much
hungering and never sated
look at the monsters you've created
wretching to prevent our sins
from settling beneath our skin
we would rather weep & heave
you have cursed us, mother eve
the mirror lies, the scale's a whore
i couldn't handle one bite more
it'd be the death of me, i'm sure
if i should take one bite more
the bodies which we have been blessed
cannot thrive in emptiness
but we have become obsessed
in hollow bones and shallow breasts
we take pride in emptiness
you have cursed us, mother eve
how can i ever believe
that i am not what i eat
you have cursed us, mother eve
you have cursed us, mother eve
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released 04 January 2012
HJ did ALL THE THiNGS!
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